I'll never understand how people can keep up their blogs. I can barely sit at the computer long enough before I have someone asking me to do something for them. we have had a couple of busy weeks. Halloween was yesteday.Taylor was a scary guy, alndon a blue morph and Blake was a power ranger. I was a witch again because my wixard costume got left in the car and phil took it to work.
We had our trunk o treat. It was rght before halloweem.I alwasy wish Phil was ther butits ok he cant be. I need to get over it. Ive got to lose soe weight and this week is the weeek. U need to eat supportively and have a schedule. I thinkI cna do it and I need to believei n myself that I can. Its been a hard week. Landon has been tough.He is failing a few sc\lasses and we are tryingto work with himThey are to hard and even for me. I hope we can make it through this year,I feel strongly he needs to be there.
Phil has mae\de a little money this week and I breathed a sigh or\f relief. I think I get the most stressed out moe then him with hisjob and money.
Ive been teaching so much piano and the house has been neglected but that;s sometimes the way it goes.
Not sure how to change that right now. i just hope we can figure out how to pay for Chrsitams and everything.
There are so many things I want to say but when I sit down sometimes I cant remember what they are. The primary has their program this next week. Im very excited especially for a few songs I really like. I found a song called Miracles by Sahawna Edwards. Its areal tear jerker.
Also I know that my savior loves me will be fabulous. When I feel depressed at leat I know i have Sunday to see the kids and sing with them. Ive been so fortunate to have this calling during this timeI have really struggled this year to find my place at chuch. At first when we moved out here I felt very accepted but becaue of scertain things I think I have been tried in my beliefs and my persona while beinghere. I have probeably judged a little to much and just tryied to figure epoeple out. Basically I feel likeI am starting over with the friends I have made and I have been able to see true froiends and peoplea s they really are.
It's weaird to say and feel allthat in a ward. Usually you just go to church and thatis the end but I really like it some times and other times I feel very judged. Not sure how to handle things and people. Very unsure of relationships. I think I have been tested and tempted also with gossip, coveting , backbiting and things like pride. I hope I can getbeetter from these thigns.
I have felt so depresed and need to change that and my ways.
