Never in my life did I ever think I would live to see atime likethis. Schoolsa re closed. Businesses are shut down accpet for non essential places. People are scared and everyone wears masks in public. We are home. COVID 19 has been the most mis handled pandemic in history. It came from China nd there has been so misinformation regarding it. I 'm not sure whether to scream, cry, laugh etc. Everyday I wake up with emotions I can't seem to shake. You wouuld think we would get alot done at home and yew we have. It's been great to not have to be somewhere and not have an activity to go to. I have enjoyed cleaning the house and not being interrupted and playing the piano and finishing a song. It's been fabulous to get organized and to just be at home. Why can;t i seem to do that when things wre open? It might be more of a mindset then anything else. I have relaxed some days and am trying to create and figure somethings ou.t Not many want piano lessons online so I needs to advertise some more. But as the days go byI fear our economy will suffer. This is the day we waited for. When prices drop. Or is it? Housing is still high which ischocking to me. Hopefully that changeds in the near future. What goes up mush come down. It reminds me o Las Vegas and the recession but orse. The fear and reaction of people to other people blows me away. we have crssed the line. Is it even Amercian to hide behind a bush in our homes. That's not the American way. We have not been a people who hide throughut history. Our President is doing a great job. Who would have though that Donald trump would become President of the United States and have to deal with this issue. Probably the hardest thing a President has had to do. I hope he gets reallected. The DEocrats have really crossed the line this time. So many wicked and deceitful people.
We have Gerenral Conference a couple of weeks ago and it was aeseom. I guess I was expecting JEsus to come from the sky with the way they had talked up the ocnference. So I was a little disappointed LOL The music wwas all reruns and I was a little letdown. But there were some amazing talks and I am listening to it again so I can cathc a glimpse of what we need to take from it. Mostly having more faith. Faith that busniesses and life can return to normal. I need to have more faith in my personal future and my purpose. I have struggled to know just what that is and where to put my efforts. Mostly I have just focused on the boys and music. Maybe that's ok. I have ah ard time thinking I need to give music up so maybe I don't but I need to makeit owrth it to.
landon graduates form High School next month. A littletear trickles down my face as I see that his time has come to an end and this precious time is now over. I'm am little sad and happy at the same time. What a wonderful boy he is and what a monumentous accomplishment he has done. i am not sure if he feels so much emotion as I do. Harder for me also. I remember when he started kindergarten and the walks to school. the flag football in the oval, the smiles, the sports teams, chess club, Middle school was harder he went to both Severance the then he Charter school. He had good friendsa nd it was small. High school has been hard. At least he was able to play sports of the HS teams and make some good friends. I'm so proud of his choices and even though we ahve had some tough things he seems happy. It's hard when your family changes and the schedules change and kids grow up. Sometimes you don't know how to change with them and what will happen. It's hard to say goodbye to the past. And then suddenly all the HS activites, parties, homecoming, stress with classes, seminary, church activities they are done. And you move on. Its a little hard. Ive shed some tears thinking about it. And yet Im so happy for him I just never thought I would be looking at my 18 year old manchild and remembering him. Tears of Joy
Tara
