It's Late

I always  have a lot I think about everyday but then I get here and I can't remember.The words don't come easily.Blake said the cutest thing the other day, He isl earning how to talk and he goes
Mom, its Dinky which means stinky. He will say,MOM I need to get in the shower, I'm Tinky. It is so cute. he wants so much to be big and we want him to stay small. He had some preschool friends over this last week outside in the backyard. They played on the tramp and on the swingset and then with the water. It was really fun for him. Taylor and LAndon helped a little bit. They are getting bigger and its hard sometimes to do something that everyone wants to do. Landon wants to do things that ust cost a lot, Taylor wants to skateboard and Blake loves the park.
I've been fed up with our house I just want it to stay clean and its impossible. I also started running again. I got hurt and haven;t been doing anything but I am better. I am slow but at least I am running a little bit. Now I need to work on slowing down adn eating healthier.

I feel like I may get released from my church calling that I love. I still hae ideas coming but We will see what appens. I am thankful for every Sunday I have left to be with my kids in primary and to listen to their voices. A few weeks ago we sand Army of Helaman and it was beautiful. I have to say. I'm tryingto calm down a little. I am high strung and it's good ifI do some Yoga or something a little relaxful.
Phil has been gone a lot lately. He is working. Things are better with him there though. At least he is making a little money. For a while I was so stressed out tryingto pay the bills doing piano. I love it but I actually got to the point where I was getting sick of hearing the piano because there were so many students.
But summer is here.I have ahd a rest and am so happy I have. I feel ready to do it again.
Im trying to enjoy every little hug and kiss I get from tooty. Every time he runs away in the store and smiles at me and snuggles. I am tryingto cherish it. Becaues I know it will pass someday. Its hard for me to go on and let them grow up. I suppose that is how it is but it is hard.