quitea day

Here was my weekend I wanted to share
Friday- take kids to school. Clean house, go to walmart, race hom.Getbalake in the bath. While he is in the both a lady comes to the door an. I totally forgot I was suppossed to teach a lesson to her. The house was a wreck!!!!!!!! Blake gets out of the bath crying. He watches a movie while I teach her. I look up and its time to go to the school so I pick Blake up throw a diaper on him and stick him in the car. The lady looked horrified. I don't even have her phone number. Maybe she wont come back. Anyway I pick blake up and race to the church because I was suppossed to teach a lesson to Sean and the Murray kids.
Blake does a doo doo and takes his pamper off andis running around the church naked. I send Landon home to get blake some clothes and bring them back. Thankfullly he omes back before any parents walk in the door.
Im not sure teaching is going to be working out all the time it is so stressful sometimes. I was exhausted. I went to bed at 8 pm that night.
Saturday we woke up and everyoneleft accept me and Blake. the toilet over flowed and suddenly the ceiling in the basement was dropping water from 5 different places. I clalled some one for hep and we spent 20 minutes looking to turn the water off. By that time therewas water everywhere. Sewer water flodded the floor gross.
So we took everything ou t of the basement. I needto go threw it.TOday they ripped out the beautiful wood flooring and we will see what happens. i guess you could sy I am in shock a little bit. I am not sure what tomorrow will bring. We need a house that doesnt ruin out stuff,

LOL

Don't Forget or it will be gone

Time passes so quickly and yet so slowly at times. i love picture i have always lovedpictures.Im not a good photographer but I still love pictures. I need to ake photos pfthe kids. I hope my birthday brings a new phone so i can take some pictures. I want some cute ones . I love capturing the moment. Its hard for me to move on and leave the past behind.I always want to take people with me or relationships of memories. Making them last forever. I like to remember the special moment.s i am a sap for those sort of things. Holding on to good times and good memories. Maybe because I am hiding from the pain of the past and sad things in my life. There aresome major things I want to change about myself this year. I   really need to committ and do so I can see some cahnges. Forst was read my scriptures everyday and secind was eat haelthier and lose the weight. Both are good goals and attainable. I need to be a better mother.Ive been working to much and i can tell.

What a crazy life

I hardely seem to have a minute to write. The new year came and went. The boys have started basketball season . Landon is playing both high school and Power to play. Taylor is playing rec. He got on a team with all the LDS boys in our ward which is great. Ladnon has had ablessing and is able to play up. so he is busy. Blake is growingu pfast. He did mess his pants today all up his back. He will wear underwear but still poops in the pamper. He makes us put it on.so funny! He had a couple friends over to play Star wars today. Swords and everything.
Heather came out with the cousins for a couple weeks. It was so fun. I feel bad we had so much going on but the cousins did have a fun. They got to stay the night, rollerskating and jumpin. Blake and Brennan had a blast. Blake was sad when Brennan went home to stay.
Ive been teaching piano again. Ihave to say I really love it. Im also trying to work out but I have had a virus and so sick this week.Noappetite or anything. I even went tot he doctor, but I think Im getting better.
PHil hasn't made any moeny its been a hard couple of months. I've relied totally on piano and staying home and tyring not to spend. The boys have really been good about helping out. I feel blessed to be able to teach and work with so many awesome kids. I'vetried to see them as individuals and do what they need to with their music.
Taylor went on a field trip wit h his classt  to the Fort Collins Science museum last week. Sofun. He also had a friend MArcus over to play. We had a snowday.The snow was so deep.The boys helped dig dad out inthe morning and thenI had to have Dad come over and plow our driveway that afternoon.
The snow is still deeo but we went sledding and made snowman. Blake likes doing that. CLoey our cat has been whiney lately, I need to take her in. SHe is geetting old. Such a gret cat though. We pet her every night and she is nice to have round. In a way its good she can go downstairs in the unfinished room and hag out during the day when it's too cold outside.
We have bee nin this house almost 5 year.s I love it for us. I hope we dont have to leave.The location is perfect for the kids and church. If we have to move I hopeit isn't far. Ive been stressed out wbout PHils work and everything and hopeing somethings will change. He deosn't seem that happy but I suppose ot os ajob and we had it so well at Westin last 4 years. What a ride.  I know some good things will come again, we just have to be ready for them and be happy. I've tried to really let alot of things go. Im hoping to make some big changed this year.I sitll love my church calling with the musci and the kids. They have been great.I hope I don't ahave to get released. It helps me to see them every week.It brings joy to my heart. It has helped my testimony. SOmetimes I dont feel like going and they have helped me go. So happy about that.Anyway its Friday. We are cleaning and organizing the house and waiting for the boysto come home.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas 2015
 Oh the weather outside is frightful but the fire is so delightful and since we've no place to go, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.

We had a great day today. We started out the day with Star wars. Mom, Dada, Christian, Erika, Erikas boyfriend and all of us went at 8:30 am to see it.
then we headed off to Grandmas for a minute to open presents.Then over to our house to eat. I set the tables and then the boys went to play ball at the church. We acted out the nativity and watched David Archuleta sing Silent night. I took a bath and thought I would blog a little bit before going to bed.

I've thought of Aunt Roxy today.  I know she is with her family in spirit. It's a hard thing when people go on because you are left behind . We alwasy loved her CHristmas card she sent every year. I know she is on a better place butshe is missed here. I know my mom has really missed her. 
This year we had some wonderful help from our ward.We were given almost $400 in gift cards to help with Christmas. I feel very humbled. I know God is looking down on us and sees our situation. 
The boys got some new shoes and some bb guns. Blake got a football post and a robot

Catching up this fall on photos

 Halloween 2015. A witch a scary guy a blue morph and a red power ranger. We had lots of fun

 Fall at the corn patch

 Uncle Christian with boys in the snow.

 Blake had his first haircut. He screamed about 30 minutes. We even went to cool cuts for kids where he could watch a movie and sit in a cook car.

Fall Family picture. Erika came over and took some with her phone in our alley. I think they turned out pretty well.  I love these little guys and so happy they are in my life. Blake and Taylor and Landon are so cute. Blake is 3, Taylor 8, Landon 13

We went and saw Santa at the Christmas ward party. Blake was terrified!

TIme Flies in the FAll

I'll never understand how people can keep up their blogs. I can barely sit at the computer long enough before I have someone asking me to do something for them. we have had a couple of busy weeks. Halloween was yesteday.Taylor was a scary guy, alndon a blue morph and Blake was a power ranger. I was a witch again because my wixard costume got left in the car and phil took it to work.

We had our trunk o treat. It was rght before halloweem.I alwasy wish Phil was ther butits ok he cant be. I need to get over it. Ive got to lose soe weight and this week is the weeek. U need to eat supportively and have a schedule. I thinkI cna do it and I need to believei n myself that I can. Its been a hard week. Landon has been tough.He is failing a few sc\lasses and we are tryingto work with himThey are to hard and even for me. I hope we can make it through this year,I feel strongly he needs to be there.
 Phil has mae\de a little money this week and I breathed a sigh or\f relief. I think I get the most stressed out moe then him with hisjob and money.
Ive been teaching so much piano and the house has been neglected but that;s sometimes the way it goes.
Not sure how to change that right now. i just hope we can figure out how to pay for Chrsitams and everything.

There are so many things I want to say but when I sit down sometimes I cant remember what they are. The primary has their program this next week. Im very excited especially for a few songs I really like. I found a song called Miracles by Sahawna Edwards. Its areal tear jerker.
Also I know that my savior loves me will be fabulous. When I feel depressed at leat I know i  have Sunday to see the kids and sing with them. Ive been so fortunate to have this calling during this timeI have really struggled this year to find my place at chuch. At first when we moved out here I felt very accepted but becaue of scertain things I think I have been tried in my beliefs and my persona while beinghere. I  have probeably judged a little to much and just tryied to figure epoeple out. Basically I feel likeI am starting over with the friends I have made and I have been able to see true froiends and peoplea s they really are.
It's weaird to say and feel allthat in a ward. Usually you just go to church and thatis the end but I really like it some times and other times I feel very judged. Not sure how to handle things and people. Very unsure of relationships. I think I have been tested and tempted also with gossip, coveting , backbiting and things like pride. I hope I can getbeetter from these thigns.
I have felt so depresed and need to change that and my ways.